faded dream

Eyes closed
in the solitude
in the darkness
images bombard the Psyche
how does the page change?
how is the story rewritten?
the ending changed
we become estranged before a glance between us was exchanged
who or whats to blame?
how i wish it would rain
to ease the pain of forcing a smile on my face but a smile is charity so in my agony i find a good deed
never will forget the days of happiness learning what being in love is
in retrospect
I'm lost trying to find the day my heart was thrown away
trying to find the day before the dream faded......to black
trying to find the light before it scum to the darkness
trying to find the day love transformed to indifference
communication became non existent
simplicity became complicated
protection rejected
reminders became non compromising impatience
images and perceptions became blurred
love became hurt
my earth shook violently
for that day when the wind blew....
and erased my scent
took away my oxygen
that day when no matter, the words chosen the message was lost in translation that day i wish to find and erase
so again i can gaze upon my lovers face
but to that day and its origin are lost on me
in solitude i search for solemn peace
regain my strength vowing never again to be weak
chin up chest out toe to toe with this beast
while deep in the inner recess of me,
in the outline of my soul i wish it was all a bad dream
but the absence of my lover gives voice to truth of reality that day and the happiness before are but a faded dream